Writings of a madman who lived through a thousand deaths. Also about taking things just as seriously as they deserve.
There were times in 2018 when I was quite okay. It wasn't as intense as the first surprise attack of normalcy back in December 2017, but it felt pretty awesome all the same. On especially cheerful days I was even thinking my mental afflictions were gone. Which was yet another delusion my brain contrived for … Continue reading How My Son Didn’t Die of Several Wildly Improbable Illnesses
The hippo had a dream of orange lakes. Water was not enough for her anymore. She hoarded all the oranges there were in the world, ate them and cooked herself in an immense pot. When she was ready, she cut her body in half. Fiery rivers and lakes of sticky jelly slowly spilled over the … Continue reading Hipporange
This is the last post in these series that involves actual people dying. At least for a good long while, I hope. If you've been here before, you might know about Mates, Apacka and Berry. They were my friends, and they are all dead. They've gone way before the fickle beast of life expectancy statistics … Continue reading So What’s My Problem with Death, Really?
If one death post a day is not enough for you, then you've just got lucky! In November 2017, I learned about another way too early departure of someone I knew. I was in Tokyo on a business trip. It was a crisp and unusually clear morning, with the rising sun painting the sprawling megalopolis … Continue reading So What’s My Problem with Death, Anyway? (3/3)
Here we go, it didn't take that long to break my vague promise of posting regularly every #GruesomeFriday. I'm one week late due to traveling and general laziness, but let's agree there is always time to make up for such sins, shall we? To remind you what this is about - welcome to the second … Continue reading So What’s My Problem with Death, Anyway? (2/3)
In the last episode in these series, I promised to share my thoughts on the possible reasons of my obsession with death and dying. Here goes the first post. But be warned! It won't be about more or less harmless rants on imagined tragedies. No. This time it's about actual death and suffering. Enjoy if … Continue reading So What’s My Problem with Death, Anyway? (1/3)
Hey, I'm back with another episode in these gruesome series. And now it didn't even take over two months since the last one! How about making this a tradition? One post a week, every Friday? Or should I rather say #GruesomeFriday? Yeah, why not. Let's see if I'll be able to keep up with such … Continue reading How I Didn’t Die of Cancer
Shame on me and my overly ambitious plans. How long has it been since the previous episode of these gruesome series? Two months, maybe three? However long it was, I'm way beyond schedule. Sorry about that. I've been busy with life, and also writing a book (I'll tell you more about that some other time). … Continue reading How I Didn’t Die of Heart Failure
Welcome to the first episode of my madness recollection series. I didn't know it was the madness when it started, back in November 2016. I simply thought I was dying. I came from work one evening, late but not much later than usual. The family was hungry so I set to cook some dinner right … Continue reading How I Didn’t Die of Stroke
Oceanic Soup 